mcm bengang.. n perasaan tu mcm2 rase skg......
sedih.... happy?? ntah.. seriously aku xtau....
bab yg paling membuatkan aku byk berpk...
should i continue this.....
separuh ati aku nyesal ambik kos geografi kat ukm...
seriously i m!
coz b4 this i m so damn fool never trust myself...
self esteem aku pun menurun~
by the way... aku pun terkilan jugak...
nak tinggalkan subjek yg aku learn by myself...!
aku bace buku dlm mase 9bulan...
try to understand... what is geo is about..
that time aku decide kptsan ni....
aku mmg rase sebe salah..
i thought i v choose the right path..
but actually i m not really...
my mind is bout geo...~
but what god's give not really in to it...
aku sndr xpaham knape aku le buat kptsan ni....
sdgkan dr skola lagi aku mmg debater... xkire bi ke bm..
smpai masuk ukm ni... aku still teruskan jugak...
then just know i just realize....
why i m taking this course....??
sdgkan i can be excellent in the other side..
this is where i m not belong~
sedih jugak...
da masuk sem 3.... then da nak 2 thun aku kat course ni....
aku rase cm syg nak tgal n i can't! coz of jpa contract!
aku xsalahkan Allah atas pe yg berlaku skg ni....
n aku terime sme ni de hikmahnyer...
well..... kalo aku xmasuk kos ni..
aku xjmpe my beloved syahrul najman...
then aku xmeet mbr2 yg agak gler...
n lady yg cute but agak brutal... nurul...
semue tu buat aku senyum....
untuk ubati hati ni....
wellll...... i v to carry on....
mungkin ade hikmah dsebalik semue ni....
insyallah.... aku akan smbung jugak dlm bidang undang2....
as what my father wish...
one day~
now... what i can do... just try to adopt myself in this situation...
hopefully i can suit there...~
here in ppspp....
even i know it is hard to...
but i v too....
even there is no more spirit here in myself...
but still hopefully i can get it back..
eventhough it is impposible~
amin.....
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